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[24 Jan 2005|02:05pm] new journal.. http://www.livejournal.com/~you_shatter_me_/ ..SHATTER ME *

How much longer will it take to cure this, just to cure it..cause I can't ignore it [16 Jan 2005|07:35pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Ryan Cabrera - Take It All Away <33 ] after this entry, im thinking this journal will be friends only.. but i'm not sure yet.. i just don't really like the idea of certain people being able to read this.. we'll see i guess   so anywayss, this weekend was fucking awesome!!!!!!!! =). friday afternoon i came home for a lilttle while and talked to derek and sara.. and then sara and adam came and picked me upp, we stopped at contempo to get coffee and went to slip disk and got some free stufff ;-) thenn headed to our other homeee =).. made some fooood and then watched The Crow.. i fell asleep towards the end, and then we went too beddd.. woke up in the morning, josh was at work.. tried to get karen to make us some breakfast, but it didn't workk =(.. we convinced her to take us to providence place, and we were gonna make derek go, but he was skating already so we decided to just go get lunch and then come coffee in johnston.. while were eating i saw chris walking up and then i saw derek and i was like OH SHIT!, cuz they prob. thought we were stalking them or something.. but whateverrr, sara got up and said hi, i got up when i saw sean! and i gave him a hug.. he came and sat with us but the rest of them don't like us =(.. sean said he wouldn't marry me now cuz i have black hair, and from chris i got "ashley.. i don't like your hair".. derek didn't talk muchh :-\. but itss okkk, he was with his budss.. so they left and me, sara and karen went across the street to contempo.. we watched them skate for a little whilee, they left and we ran over to slip diskk.. karen bought some stuff, she got me the guster dvd for my birthday, even thought thats not til april =) =) =).. then we sat in contempo for an hour, or maybe two? and we talked to josephh =).. he said he liked my hair better black then the other colorss.. my mom tells me that everybody that says my hair looks good is lieing to me because it looks bad =\.. so we left contempo and headed back homee for when josh got back from workk.. we messed around, went on the computer, i watched the guster dvd (by myself =( ) and danced and sangg, and  then laterr on we all layed down and watched shrek 2 =).. i fell asleep thoughh, of coursee.. so we woke up today early to josh making us breakfast =), and then went to the computer showww.. me and sara both got microphones, THANK GOD, and then we sat and talked into them for a whilee.. we were going outta our MINDS, there was a cute old man standing near us for a couple minutes, and he witnessed our crazyness and turned around and said "your mics are working good i can hear then ;-)" hahaha, it was funny.. then a little girl walked by and her hair was so static-y that all of it was sticking up, oh man it was great.. WISH we had a camera.. then went to visit sara's memere cuz its her birffday, then they brought me home =).. thee enddd. yeah, its a long entry.. but i'm adding picture anyways derek @ wendy's seaniee poppins eeatinn @ wendy's.. kinda crappy picture cuz my phone is homo =) i HAD to put this in here cuz its fucking hallarious, and she enjoys showing bad pictures of mee ;-) aww, josh with our puppies =) Karen in Contempo =).. wearing sara's USED sweatshirt ;-) Those are the pictures of the most important people of my weekend <333 AND I LOVE THEM!! 4 || ..SHATTER ME *

I know where i belong, and nothings going to happen. [12 Jan 2005|10:25pm] [ mood | tired as all hell. ] [ music | The Cure - Close to Me ] Is there a passionate way to have butt sex!? DEFINATELY a classic moment right there, hahaha so anyways.. i got home today and all i wanted to do was sit there and not move.. because i was up til 1 last night talkin to sean and derek on the telephonee.. and i was tiredd, but it was worth it =), they are funn.. but yeah, me and sara decided to go workk.. which was hard, cuz we were already in painn.. my lungs are screamin at me =(.. and my hands all blister-bruisedd.. and im shakkingg.. but oh well, we had fun again... we danced to the wiggles =).. and i pet fishys =), and held mousey'ss.. and worked a lottttttttt, and sang and yeahh..it was funnn <33... i came home and took a shower cuz i was all dirty and grosss, and now im sitting here talking to sara and derek =). wooooot. picture timeee. yeah, so he was talking to two wicked cool people on the phone ;-) yeah, so thats the shit we breathe when we work =\ yeppp, im wicked ghetto sara, not so ghetto ;-) i like my eyes in that, not that they're open? 6 || ..SHATTER ME *

YoU SHouLD LeT Me LoVE You* [11 Jan 2005|09:44pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Sean and Derek's big mouths ;-) ] umm.. so yesterday, i went to work with sara and adam.. and it was super funn <33.. i did a dance for sara and i got hyper and was running around and actually having fun doing work, even though it was hard and it hurt, and sara worked herself too hard so yelled at her =)... oh man, it was so weird esp. when we were trying to help adam throw out the crap.. and he scared me like 9823748273 times.. and then we were tired and i played with the mice and stufff.. and then the end.and today i stayed outta school, and talked to dan on the phone to daniel, and then went online and stuff.. and i watched white chicks and ocean skate.. and then i came online and stuff? and i dyed my hair again, and yeah.. now im on the telephone with derek and seanie poppins. cuz they're wicked cool :-).. and i <33 them.. cept derek's mean and keeps making fun of me, but thats ok because he is still my idol.. yeppp, ok im done. ..SHATTER ME *

I love everything about you, i can't help it if i feel this way.. [08 Jan 2005|06:08pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | New Edition - Candy Girl << you know it! ] ok, so yesterday i came home from school and went online, then watched ocean skate so i could see my idol and all his greatness ;-).. then i finished it, talked to marvin, sara, eric, and other people.. then adam picked me and sara up after work and brought us to sara's sister's housee =).. we got there and josh had left so no one was home and we were standing at the door screaming and kicking it, to find that nobody was even there.. so we hid and jumped out at josh when he came backk.. muahaha. then we hung out there and got to watched ocean skate, the crow, and scarface!! but i kinda fell asleep during scarface =(.. AND I LEFT IT AT THEIR HOUSE! luckily my brother has a copy too =).. so this morning we woke up and talked to karen and then josh brought us to Dunkin Donuts and then adam came and brought us homeee.. the moral of this story, we had lots and lots of fun when we visited our "home" =). the end. Meeeee yeah, so i look really bad.. but its a good picture sa fighting with karen over brandon lee ;-) yeah.. idk, im weird? again.. im weird. joshh.. my brother-in-law ;-).. almost, haha KARENN!!.. my sister =).. almost i WAS going to add a picture of my idol, but i don't think he'd like that very much ;-) 7 || ..SHATTER ME *

SARA SUCKS MY BALLS, AND BOY DOES IT FEEL GOOD.. [07 Jan 2005|11:10am] [ mood | headacheee ] [ music | some weird things people are playing ] im in school =). i didn't do anything all week, so i had no reason to updatee.. yesterday i wastched shrek 2 and see spot run, and thats about itttt.. so i forgot to mention about going to the mall last thursday, and i wanted to mention it because i got to hang out with josh =) =).. and met his girlll who is coool, melissa and dj are the only friends of josh's that i have EVER like, in our whole lives.. hahahaha, we walked around all the stores, i got my new purse and a new rainbow seatbelt belt.. its hottttttttt =).. anywayss, so yesterday i wanted to finish my dye, because mr. rooney made me start thinking about growing out my hair and making it brown, DAMN HIM. but yeah, i put blue in it.. and somehow it turned black!?! so my whole head is now black.. except some random parts that are brown, because i didn't have enough dye and it didn't get everywhere i guess.. but now all my dye is gone so we'll see what happenss.. no winterball for me and sara tonight, which is good because i don't think i would have too much fun seeing them together.. you may not know who i mean, but thats ok because if you don't already then you won't =).. and i don't want to waste all that money on going somewhere that i won't have much fun and i'll hate a lot of people there, so yeahh.. me and sara are sleeping at her sisters housee, we were going to go to the movies and hang out with ryan, but nooooo adam is busy so he can't pick us uppp.. =(.. we'll have fun with karen and josh though =).. i don't know what else im doing this weekend, watching ocean skate 92187491824 times =).. cuz im getting that todayyy =).. i don't get to talk to derek til sunday =(, no daily-dose of marvin for meee =(.. ohh well, as long as he has funn ;-).. haha, so anywayss the bells gonna ring soon so im outttt ..SHATTER ME *

I know I don't know you, but i want you.. so bad* [01 Jan 2005|06:00pm] [ mood | hehehehe ] [ music | Trapt - Perfect Dream <33 ] thursday was the show, which was fucking amazinnggg.. the boys did mighty-good =). me, sara and adam rode down there.. brandon was there and i gave him his present =).. and seanie poppins camee =).. NO DEREK ROONEY THOUGH! grrrrrrr. so anyways, we hung out there for a couple hours and it was pretty funn.. and then gathering shadows came on =) =).. they were awesome, as usualll.. when they were done we headed to wendy's and sa and adam got some food and then we went homeee. friday me, adam, eddie, and sara went to warwick to meet up with sara's sister and brother-in-law (karen and josh).. we all headed down to dave and bustersss <33.. =) we stayed there for like 6 hours!!!! =) it was sooo much funnnn!!! the jet-ski's were DEFINATELY my favorite ;-).. that up and down motion ;-)... "I bet you were picture you and lickety-split on that".. haha, oh yeah sara ;-).. and the car's were fun toooo.. and crazy taxi, and the coin thingsss, and the ski-ball, and the motorcycless, and everythinggg =).. i got 2002 ticketss, so i got some stuffed animals and some other stufff =).. we were going to walk around providence after, but we decided to just go homeee.. =), which was alsooo verryyy funn.. THEY ARE WHACK! hahahaha.. crazy kids, ;-). today we went out to dinner with the familyy <33... sara's dad won $410!! luckkyy!, and now im home.. and waiting for sara and adamm =) and talking to derek and iann. woot woot... i have A LOT of pictures. anthonyyy adam ANDREW!!!! =) RYRY!!! mike my mousey + mystery machine from dave and busterss =) yeah, you know thats the cutest thing EVER!.. another stuffed animal from D&B ANOTHER stuffed animal from D&B, which im naming.. MARVIN! =), muahaha yeah, don't askkk yeah, we're losers =) hahahahaha talent right there =) not as much talent ;-).. justt kiddingggg, haha 2 || ..SHATTER ME *

Please don't wake me up, you're such a perfect dream.. [29 Dec 2004|09:58pm] [ mood | meh ] [ music | Pantera - Shattered ] today, sara was here all day.. we didn't do anything though cept. watch the backstreet boys =). woooot!! tomorrow = shopping and then GATHERING SHADOWS!!!!!!!!! =) =) =) =) =). and hopefully hanging out with some peopleee thereee =). i can't waiitttt!!!! =). mmmm. and i gotta bring my perfume for derek, hahaha. what a weirddoooo. =) picture ryan took ferr me todayy =) hahaha thats right, i had him put on the chain and made him smile sean at the mall yesterday, hahaha Sa N Seanie-Poppinsss Me + my new fishy.. either named Lickety-Split orrr Marvin.. idk yett, suggestions!? 5 || ..SHATTER ME *

You think I'm weak, I think you're wrong. [28 Dec 2004|11:13pm] [ mood | heeeheeeeeeee ] [ music | Eamon - Fuck It =) ] lassst nighhtt, adam came and picked me  up and then we went and picked up sara lynn, and we headed down to contempoo. <33.. we hadn't been there in a whileee. so we got there and nicole, erika, and shire were there =).. adam bought us coffees, mmm they were excellent, as usuall.. we just hung out there for a while, i went crazyyy with sara's camera thoughh.. and i did it more when we got back to my homee... then this morning i woke up to the phone ringing and it was nikole, asking if we wanted to go to the mall with her today, so i said suree, cuz i miss her and haven't seen her in ages.. and yes, i know thats my fault, but idkkk.. so she came and picked us up and then derek drove and we went and picked up matt and then headed to the providence place malll.. in hot topic we saw mr. derek rooney, said hi and such but didn't really talk to himmm.. thennn i heard people saying my name so i said what and they said SEAN was there! so i went out and gave him a huggg.. so we hung out with them ferr the rest of the timee.. it was funn =). then we had to leave =(, so we went back to nikole's house and ate some ice cream cake =) and thenn went to wendy's and then the pet storee.. i got a new fish =). almost got another mouse, but im gonna wait, now im gonna show some of the 9238489234 picturess =) me at contempo with my coffee =) me, sa, and adamm.. hahaha yeah, so adam looks REALLY creepy in that one =) idk why, but i think my hair looks super-cool me touching the manikin's bum =) this one's a little blurry, but its funnayy.. sean's making fun of me ;-) picture sean took of me and sa, i think it looks cool how its blurred me and nikole, in the car leaving the mall thats the last picture for today, i have lottss more so i'll just keep posting them like i usta doo.. <3 ..SHATTER ME *

cannddyyy girrrl, you are my worldd [27 Dec 2004|05:12pm] [ mood | hey baby ;-) ] [ music | Iced Earth - I Died For You <33 ] yesterday some of the family came over and we had dinner and suchhh, then they all left and i was supposed to go to sara's sister's but noooooooo!!! haha, yeahh.. so not much happened, but i wanted to add some picturess.. haha, yeah you know shes cute ;-).. all of the above were from christmas eve yepp, thats me "just chillin" as ian says, on christmass iannnn babbyyy <33 ..SHATTER ME *

CRiMSON AND CLOVER [25 Dec 2004|09:12pm] [ mood | how YOU doin!? ;-) ] [ music | The Cure - The Hanging Garden ] yeah, so tuesday adam picked us up from school and we hung out and stufff.. then we went to the warwick mall for a little whileeee.. wednesday there was a basketball game and me and sara got there early and walked around, talked to mike, and some other peopleee.. then dan got there and we hung out with him all night, idk.. it was weird. soo yeahhh, sara slept over on wednesday and on thursday we hung out and did some stuff.. then danielle asked me to sleep overrrr.. so i went to danielles houseee =), sammie brought us to AV and we hung out with sean, andrew, eric, derek, and ryann(who was mighty hott that night). we walked around a bunch.. went to mcdonalds where danielle became a mom, i became and aunt, and ryan became an uncle ?.. haha, yeah.. don't ask =) then we went and sat in fronta subway and talkeeddd. i wanted to talk to ryan more but im shy =(.. hahaha, but i had funnn.. i love danielle, sean and andrew <333. so then me and danielle went home and went online and stuff then we watched my boss's daughter, which we saw in the theater like 98237423 years agooo. and then we went to bed, slept in jesse's room.. and then got up and had some more fun =). hahahaha. yepppp. then mommy came and picked up up, i got ready and such and we headed to my aunt's house and had christmas eve.. stayed there then went home.. woke up and sat around, opened some presents.. then got ready and went to my uncle's housee.. then came home with josh =) =) =). right now im sitting here, josh just got off the phone with melissa, and im listening to some music and talking to ryan, ian, josh, danielle and saraaa. ok, but im gonna end this cuz ryan is rushing me and saying im taking a long time, so the end =). HAPPY!? :-P hahahaha me and danielle, taken by jesse on our way to dinnerrr <3.. i look really bad and FAT, but oh wellll =) my sisters <3 1 || ..SHATTER ME *

Please don't let it go.* [19 Dec 2004|09:41pm] [ mood | MEOWWW ] [ music | Opeth - In My Time of Need <3 ] This weekend was nice and relaxinnggg =). friday was battle of the bands =) =) =).. nicole came to school and picked me and sara up, which was awesome cuz i miss nicooleeee =(. and we went to sara's house, then my home, then nicoles houseee.. and then we went down to greenville to hitt up cvss.. and thenn we went to battle of the bands.. we got there kinda early, we hung out with andy and sean and colton at random times.. then we saw dan's mommy and waved and she pointed out the door cuz dan was there so we ran to himmm. =). and hung out with him all nighhttt.. me and sara were in a realllyyy weird mood and mike gave us some papers to hang up so we ran around and i just handed them out and sara put them on windows?.. then we talked to anthony and adam and i got a little tap in the face from anthony, haha.. i thought he had something for me =(, i fell for it.. ohh welll.. so yeah, saw danielle, kayla, sean, andrew, jake, john, matt, colton, bobby, chad, dylan, kayla, bryan, ryry, anthony, mike, other mike, pat, other other mike, eric, ryan, tyler, and everyone else in the school ;-)..then we went in, dylan came and gave us hugs, but.. yeahh.. i sat between dan and chadd but i talked to sara and kayla lottsss =).. then after intermission i sat between dan and colton.. it was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. GATHERING SHADOWS came on and they were f-ing hottttt. good job boyss =). so then it ended and me, kayla, and dan stood outside.. idk where sara was??.. but then dan had to leave so we said bye and me and kayla roamed, then me, kay and sara went onto the stage and talked to andy, ryan, sean, anthony, adam and bryann.. bryan embarrassed me =(.. but its alll goood.. hahaha, we went to leave and i JUMPED on andrew and then sara gave anthony a hug? so then he gave me a hug =). and then me, sa and kayla allll went in adam's car and headed to contempooo =). hung out there til kayla had to go homee, and we brought her home and then went home and went to bedd =). saturday we watched movies all day =). it was nicccccccceeeeeeee.. we watched a christmas story, elf, annddd the grinchh!. then wrapped some presents and waited for adam and erika to come pick us up.. we hung out at contempo and then went home.. today we watched the crow =). it was a good movie, and then did nothing =). right now i SHOULD be doing my art homework, but ehhh.. im a slackkerr 2 || ..SHATTER ME *

Lost in everything about you </3 [15 Dec 2004|04:34pm] [ mood | meh ] [ music | 30 Seconds to Mars - Edge of the Earth ] alrite, so i have to start back at Friday cuz im lazy and forget to write in here.. lets see now, friday me and sara went to the movies, dan couldn't go though.. but we got to hang out with sean =) =). we got COMPLETELY soaked and then went to dangelo's and chris gave us some free soda and chips and suchh.. then we went back to the movies and hung out til adam got there and then we brought sean home and headed to the smithfield ice rink for hockeyy.. well, more like just to see dan.. haha, and so we hung out with him til the game was over, it was a good time.. at least i got to see him for a little while since he didn't go to the moviesss.. then me and sara went to my house and slepttt. saturday mother and i went shopping for danielle's christmas present, =).. got her some cookie monster pajamas, muahaha. then she brought me to her house afterr. sean went to danielle's too, so i got to hang out with him twicceee =). we had hannukah dinner and presents and suchh.. then we went to bring sean home and rented a moviee to watch on danielle's newww tv+dvd playerr. we got 13 going on 30, oh man it was a good movie!!! i <3'ed ittt!!!!. then we went to sleeep. woke up in the morning at like 8-ish and went with her dad to temple to help with the little kids =). they were so cuuuteeee!!!! then we went to a chinese marketplace thing or something? then went home and hung out for a while, washed our hair and all that good stufff, lit the candles and then went out to dinner for jesse's birthday =). it was yummmyyyyyyy. and fun =), butt! they brainwash you in the bathroom! hahahaha. then sammie and jesse brought me home and that was that. monday i didn't do anything.. yesterday dan had a basketball game so me and sara wenttt. they won, which means maybe i'm not bad luck ;-). alicia and becky were there too, but i didn't really talk to them too much.. we hung out with pat and talked to colton, bobby and ryan randomly. after we tried calling laurie but there was no cooperation, so dan's mom said she would bring us home.. so we got dan and me and dan got in the back =) =) =).. i love dan's mommy soo muchhh <333, we had her bring us to sara's cuz it was closer, got to sara's.. fought with my mom </3 then sat around and had some funn. then mommy and norman brought me homee. today im not planning on doing anything, just hanging around and stuff.. school was kinda boring except a few highlights, and sara stayed home! =(. now, i can't wait til friday cuz i want to see dan, and go to battle of the bands and see gathering shadows =). ..SHATTER ME *

..I couldn't bear to hurt you* [09 Dec 2004|09:47pm] [ mood | riiiiight ;-) ] [ music | Pantera - Cowboys from Hell <33 =( ] R.I.P. "Dimebag" Darrell Abbott, 1966 ~ 2004 tuesday, adam picked us up from school and we went to my house and he typed up a paperr.. and then he said he wasn't gonna go to school so we went to conn. and tried to get sa's tongue pierced but things got messed up =(. then we went to the store cuz we hadta get danielle a fishy for her mommy, and we got my mousey =) =) =), hehe.. and then we brought her the fishy and i walked in and made everyone scream =) haha.. dropped off sara, came to my house, adam set up the cage and leftt... then i played with my mousey =).. hes sooo cuuteeee!!! yeppp =).. wednesday sara didn't come to school =(.. i saw dan at the buses, well before them and he walked me over there =).. and then later me and sa decided to go to the girl's game to get outta the house.. dan came =) hung out with him, mike, lucas, andy, jake, other people? it was funnnn =).. got some pictures of dan, and i thought mike, but i guess nottt.. they were all being goof-balls, as usual.. =) =). i <3 them. then we went home, and i did nothing =). today, i did nothing =).. well i wrapped dan and dylan's presents =). yeppp. little josh on the bus =) sara and josh, with his little six pack ;-) josh and jake.. picture sara took? this was one of my FAVORITE pictures, EVER josh in my mudvayne shirt, kinda sideways, but im lazy =) pretty josh =) me and joshua scott* another of my favorites =), josh and lindsey aww, my two cuties =).. haha can you say.. DORKS?.. =) josh and jake =).. how cuuuteee =) yeah, so ladies and gentlemen, there are more to be seen.. just not at the moment ;-).. you know you love it ;-) 7 || ..SHATTER ME *

There's a pain that sleeps inside, it sleeps with just one eye and awakens the moment that you leave [05 Dec 2004|08:53pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Hoobastank >> Disappear ] so friday ryan came and picked me and sara up and we went to the church to pick up his drumss.. adam was there and we all got the stuff so they could put it in their cars.. then we went to ocean skate, which was a good time.. good job guys!! met up with daniel there =).. anndd saw SEANIE!, dylan, tyler, ryan, andrew, jake (who by the way decided to hump me?), eric, doug, chad, kayla, other people? it was fun, but dan wouldn't listen to me and sldkjfhaklsjdfhakf. HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I CARE ABOUT HIM AND.. GRRRRR. then it ended and we went outside, dan's mom was there but he waited with us for my mom and then i gave him like 29347 hugs and went in the car.. and mother brought me and sara to our home and we waited for adam to come and get uss.. we stopped by cumby's and visited ross and russ, and saw nicole, erika and shire.. so we all headed to contempo and hung out for a little whilee.. me, sa and adam were all really tired though so we came home early and sleptt.. saturday adam only had work til 4 so he came and got us and we went to his house and played around on the computer, then we called daniel and told him we were gonna stop by, so we did.. talked to him for a couple minutes =) =). then we headed to johnston and went to contempo, dave was there!!!!!! i miss himmmm, he gave me a hug and all the good stuff.. joe was working and they were being weirdos but then dave hadta go get his girlfriend, yeah thats weird that he has one, but anyways joe talked to us a bunch =). "...i want her" mmmhm, he may have been joking but DAMN that was a nice thing to hear! nicole, sarah and nicoles friend brian showed up.. they were fun =). i <3 nicole very muchh =).. brian sat on me? hahaha.. it was funny.. after a while we decided to go bug mat at work =). there weren't any sample cups for coffee so he gave me a big one =) and then adam got us some yummy snackss =). today me and sara watched the grinch =) and then i slept =). the end. me and joshua scott <333. i look really funny but its ok because im with josh so this deserves to be in here =).. i missss youuu joshh </3 hahahaha, me and sara @ josh's house, with the teddy bear that jess gave me <3 us with jake =).. who we haven't seen in like, yearss.. and yeah, he's growing up!! =(, oh how things change. Sara and joshua <33 I wanted to comment, but things just got all mixed up in me and im not sure i can... i miss you so much josh, i love you.. and i have now decided that im going to scan some old pictures and put them up in here, good ol' times <3 5 || ..SHATTER ME *

I'll do my best to hold on ** [02 Dec 2004|09:36pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Killswitch Engage - Rose of Sharyn ] i didn't get to update yesterday so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA!!!!! =).. adam picked us up yesterday and we went to russ's for a couple minutes, then to adam's and then we headed to JOSH'S HOUSE =) =) =) =).. i miss those kids so much, i don't think i could ever explain to anyone how much i do, and i KNOW sara feels the same way.. just seeing them felt so good, and made me so happy.. but at the same time i wanted to cry because of what i lost and how much i want that back and wish i could live in the past sometimes.. but me and sara are going to kidnapp the three of them =). haha. right sa ;-) i got to see jess, who i haven't seen in a while, and jake who i haven't seen since they f-ing moved.. they're all growing up =). how cute, hahaha. jess gave me like 238472384 things, and i got hugs from josh and jake, and went and looked around their house, and talked to mommy and don, and saw the new puppy, and chandler who is MIGHT fat!!!! he was so skinny before, i STILL can't believe it, oh mann. yeah, so after a little while we UNFORTUNATELY had to leave, it was so saddddddddd.. and me and sara got in the car and both cried til we got to the mall and got out in the parking lot and hugged and cried, but i wanted to stop so i laughed and stuff.. idk, i guess everything just came back when i actually saw them all.. i usually try not to think about it, it hurts too much.. ok, i need to stop before i cry again... umm, so anyways, we went to the mall and got dan and dylan their christmas presents =) and then we went homeee.. today i was supposed to go to danielles, but shes sick =( [feel better =)]  and during math pat informed me of a middle school basketball game and said i should go.. so me and sara went there and hung out with pat and watched daniel play =) =) =). hes extremely good at that gammeee. but stupid f-ing girls were being stupid and annoying and i wanted to KIllLLlL themm =). i couldn't help watching how retarded they were, but pat made me stop cuz he said it just got me maddd.. we lost =( but when the game was over i got to see dan =) =).. and we went outside so i could use the phone but my phone was being gay, and i had to ask dan's daddy to use his cell phone, sccarrrryyyy!!!! and then we went back in and waited for dan to finish changingg.. and talked to him for a couple minutes, then said bye =( and walked over to the high school.. came home, dyed our hair (again) then adam came and they went bye bye =(. sometime soon, hopefully, i will post some pictures up in hurr of us at josh's house with the boy's and suchh.. we'll seee =). 1 || ..SHATTER ME *

<> I can't lie and say I'm fine <> [29 Nov 2004|01:08pm] [ mood | funny face ] [ music | BRYAN IS A LOSER. ] so we get outta school last wednesday to see ross standing over near the auditorium, and he asked if we wanted a ride hom.. so we went and hung out with him all night.. went to go see Alexander (the movie ;-) ), it was kinda boring and long, but it was THREE HOURS OF JARED LETO, yeah.. thats right bitch. hott shit right thereeee. mmmhm, he was gay in it, but thats ok because he was STILL hott. =). so then adam met up with us and brought sara home, and ross brought me home.. and then we talked, and yeah. thursday, went to my uncle's house and played with the little ones, sang with them and suchh, then JOSH CAME =) =). we ate some food and then walked down to my house and hung out there for a while.. sara and adam called, and they came and picked us up.. we headed to adam's uncle's house and ate again!, josh seemed to fit right in with the fam ;-). after we ate we all played with the little kids =). they're so f-ing cuteee!, and Quinn's my new boyfriend =), so according to our math last night, i have 4 boyfriends ;-).. then i suppose adam got a message from ross? so we went and picked him up and went to hang out at contempooo. =). i didn't feel good after a while though :-\. then they brought us home around midnighhttt, and josh went right to the computer so me and sara went to beddd. we woke up and josh went homee, so we hung around all day, tried to figure out how we could get to the movies.. norman said he'd bring us =)=)=).. so we got ready and waited for norman to come, and squeezed in his truck, kinda uncomfortable ;-). hahaha. and then we got to the movie, walked to cvs and hung out.. then we found dan =)=)=), i hadn't hung out with him in like TWO WEEKS! it was horrible! (to not see him, that is).. and we walked around for a bit and then me, sa, daniel, and colton went into the moives.. went to see spongebob =). oh man, i couldn't stop smilingggg =) =), dan is so F-ING CUTE. jsdhkjsahdfkljhdlakjshgd. mmmhmm =). "WHAT WAS THAT???!!" hahaha, sara.. CAPTAIN OBVIOUS!. dan left during the movie to see sean and wasn't going to come back =(, but he came back during the end and stuffff. =).. then we walked around for a while and stuffff... but then dan had to go =( so we went to contempo and hung out with nicole and sarahh.. then they dropped me off, and sa went to her homee.. saturday i went to danielle's house and we hung out, got dropped off at sean's house and hung out with him, eric and andy for a whileee =). then sammie came and got uss.. we hung out some more and then went down to burrillville for the hockey game.. hung out with steve and chrisss.. went home, went to sleep and all thatttt... then sunday we cleaned up danielle's room, made it COMPLETELY empty =). we're good like that ;-). it was funnnn being carpenters ;-). then after, i went home and sara and adam caem and got me, sara gave me my christmas presents.. a HIM shirt, an atreyu shirt, 30 seconds to mars sweatshirt, and perfumeee.. we went to cumberland farms and visisted ross at cumberland farms and suchh... =). then end. =) 2 || ..SHATTER ME *

..it feels it would be easier to fall than to flutter in the air with these wings so weak and torn [24 Nov 2004|01:31pm] [ mood | meh. ] [ music | sdlkfhaslkfjhklsajhf << thats what it sounds like ] yeah, so much for writing more often... i haven't written in a while and some shitt has happened ;-). thursday we were supposed to go to mr. cheiftan, but we couldn't so we went to contempo for a little while and hung out with a bunch of people.. then friday we didn't go to the movies cuz dan, dylan and josh all weren't going, so we waited for adam to get outta work and we hung out with him.. we went to contempo and hung out with ross there, then me and sara went to my house.. we split cars, i went with ross and sara went with adam.. ross hit his head when he was getting in and then he fell ;-). it was funnnnyyy. so yeah, we drove and talked and stuff. saturday we wanted to go to the mall, but mother wouldn't take us.. so adam and ross came and got us and we went to emerald :). we met up with russell, erika, and shire there tooo.. we all ended up separating after a little while though, so me and ross walked around and went into yankee candle and such.. cuz hes a weirdo ;-). then we all met back up and decided to go hang out at contempo. ross and shire kept fighting over the couch, it was pretty funny. and quite strange, i can tell ross was really tired. then adam brought me home and sara slept over againn. sunday adam skipped youth group and we went to hang out at cumberland farms for a bit with ross.. he took a break to chilll with us.. and then we went to contempo, and i called dan =)=)=).. i hadn't talked to him in like a week or so, it was nice =). school monday, and thats about it i believe.. i can't really rememberr. yesterday, went to school and had to stay after to make up a stupid quiz for math :-\. sara's mom was comming to get us at 3:30, so we went over to the middle school and saw dan =)=)=). we went in his locker and went through it, he said we could of course.. and i took his hat cuz its cool and says "SmaSh it Up". then we went to sara's house, and waited for adam and stuff.. then went to look for joe's little karate place, and we found it but we didn't go in cuz joe was already inside and stufff. then we went to putnam and picked up nicole and lindsey to bring them homeee. umm.. yeah :).. i can't wait until tomorrow, josh might be able to come and sleep over =) =) =). i misssss himmmmmmmmm!!!!!! right now im in accounting and its louddd! and my nose hurts, and so does my eyebrow ring cuz mr. hicks just came and visited and he walked by and hit my hat down!! hahaha.. silly boyy. 4 || ..SHATTER ME *

<>The pain arrives and hurts like a twist of a knife.<> [17 Nov 2004|10:51am] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | Sara's listening to the used >>> ] LET ME START OFF BY SAYING, SINGERS ARE SO F-ING HOTT. <33 mmmm =) and yeah, jared leto looks EXTREMLY hott in my background <333. mmmmhhmmm. I'd hop on that shit =). alrriteee now, im sick of writing such long entries so ima try and write more often. we'll see what goes down though. sooo anyways, monday sara came over and we hung around.. we watched the used dvd for a couple hours. JARED LETO IS IN IT <33. and bert is wearing a 30 seconds to mars sweatshirt, which i am getting from sara for chistmas =) =) =). woooot. then we hung out more, had QUITE an interesting conversation with my mother and her boyfriend, it was rather disturbinggg. then adam came and got her and i did nothing =). tuesday i went to school and then adam picked up me, sara, and danielle and brought me and danielle to danielles home :). it wasss funnnnnnnn <333. sean called and danielle told him that i ditched her, it was funnnyy :). hahaha. then we ate some food and hung around and waited for steve to come over.. we went outside and did some random things, we played ballerina <3. hahaha, that was wicked funnnayy. and we sand/danced to some backstreet boys.. then steve came and we walked around the pong, after i went int he goats barn thingy so i could see the bunny, but it was scary cuz the goats were gonna eat me!!!!!!!!! we played ballerina for steve too, and he kept asking us if people ever tell us that we are weird, and of course.. they do =). hahaha. thenn sara called and said they were on their way, and she came and we were walking out to the car and i heard "AREN'T YOU COLD!?!?" and i screamed cuz i saw ross =) =). that was a plesant surprise.. haha, and he was very tired so we made fun of him lots and suchh.. and i told him that i was pregnant with his baby and that i had sex with him in his sleep. muahaha. im very sneaky =), yeah yeah ya know it ;-). and shockingly, he went along with it and joked about it when i was saying that i did other stuff in his sleep and he would say stuff like "was that before or after?" haha, it was a grannddd ol' time ;-). yeah, so i must say that yesterday was an EXCELLENT day. <333 i loved it.     1 || ..SHATTER ME *

..GONNA BE YOUR SAVIOR* [15 Nov 2004|01:27pm] [ mood | SCHOOLS ALMOST OVER. ] [ music | Shinedown* Burning Bright ] yeah, so this weekend was fun :). friday night me and sa went with adam and visited apple valley.. we brought sean home and then brought dan and dylan to contempo and hung out for the night :) :). the boys kept laughing at me in the back cuz i was dancing and singing, hahaha..it was funn.. i love being with them <33. all 4 of them. we saw josh and his friend kevin, or kalvin ;-). hahaha. and joe was there for a bit :). it got really snowy so we hadta leave and brought dan and dylan to dylan's housee. then we headed to adam's to meet up with ross and we all went downstairs to watch some good ol' tv. i peed first though cuz i hadta pee so bad that it hurt =). we all made fun of the tv the whole time tho, it was fun <33. i love being with ross when hes being fun like that, it was like constant laughing.. until he was falling asleep of course.. then we went out in the trailer where it was freeezzzinggggg. woke up to ross banigng on the fricken trailer and he came in and told us to come inside cuz it was warmer, and he made a path for us to walk so we didn't step in all the snow <33. hes so f-ing cute sometimes. then me and sa went inside and watched some tv and i sang to everything, muahaha. then we went out and played in the snow :). we played catch and pretended we had to dive to catch all the balls, but i kinda hurt my shoulders. :-\. they still kinda hurt when i do certain things, but its ok.. i'll take it like a man. =). we came inside and changed and layed down some more, and then hadta go homeee. later my mommy brought us down to smithfield for sean's party. it was wicked funnn. i got to see zack, who i haven't seen in foreverrr <33. i love that kidd. CEPT HE PUSHED ME IN THE SNOW THREE TIMES AND MY ASS WAS FREEZING. i saw nick, sean(obviously), dan, dylan, doug, dan s., ryan, robb, zack, ryan, andy, ray, and other people =). hahaha. GATHERING SHADOWS played and they were fucking awesome, as usual. i love those boyysss. GO AND SEE THEM AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, you won't regret it ;-). anywayysss.. adam came and got us and then brought us to my home and me and sa slept thereee.. sunday we didn't do muchh, cleaned my room and other shittt. and today sara's comming over again. =). the end. ..SHATTER ME *

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